The rest

I ran out of room in my other post.
my personal update is that with my best friend gone home for her hubby's deployment, and mike always gone, i went from pretty worn out and lonely, to totally alone and waaayyy low. i fell apart and found it hard to muster the will to get out of bed. after awhile of that i felt desperate and i am now on antidepressants. i know the christian opinion of that....but i have only been on them for four days and i am so thankful i did it because i can see the happy cheerful side of life for the first time in years. i used to walk around witha secret pain, and underlying sadness that poisened things for me. i was just overwhelmed. this isnt permanent but its going to help me through this time with small children and no husband all alone. im feeling so much better now....

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Pedaling furiously

Well its been awhile but here i am. i'm still alive. I'll just update each family member. hubby is out in the field every week now, for at least four out of five days, and that will continue till the middle of feb, and then in march he'll be gone almost the whole month, then he'll get a week or two off, then he'll deploy for at least seven months. his body is tired, he's pretty worn down. we are trying to enjoy our time and be good to each other because our time is running out!
little m-dog has learned to open doors. imagine what that does to mommy! he is getting his two year molars, so sleeping isnt something he does much of, and he is just about to turn two so he is a picky eater and likes to go upstairs and play by himself in his room. or mine. he actually prefers mine but i dont agree with him and we have some discussions about that.
little A-rose is standing, she crawls up to things and then stands up...she would rather stand than anything. she was underweight at one point so the nutritionist told me to switch her over to table food fast...so now my babies sit together in high chairs every meal and eat big people food! once i started her on that, she went from 14 pounds to 16 in two and a half weeks! im so excited for her. shes such a cheerful girl, i can always count on her for a little sunshine.

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This should be the best

i should be so happy all the time. i love my husband and my kids are beautiful and fun. but i am so tired....my husband is never home......the kids are so much work. hubby has been gone for eight days so far. we are hoping he can come home tomorrow. and after that hes gone the entire month of march. and after that....he gets exactly one week home, and then he deploys for seven months or more. little MJ isnt potty trained yet...AJ isnt quite walking...neither of them talk...they jus eat and make messes and poop and make messes and break things and make some more messes. i feel like crying. i want a whole day , wake up till bedtime where i am not responsible for everything. i need to go because i have a migraine and the light is hurting me. thankfully its naptime.....

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Small victories

I finally organized my room! i hung up pictures and everything. we have been here four months and i finally hung pictures in my bedroom. that only took me forever. now if i could just unpack those last three boxes....ah well. at least i accomplished something that was a huge weight on me.
i took lil miss AJ in to the pediatrition to have her diaper rash looked at, and it turned into blood drawing and a round of shots, and now i have two appts for her in the next five days to be weighed and see a nutritionist because she is underweight. she is developementally up to par and everything is fine except the number on the scale so i have to keep bringing her in for awhile to prove she is gaining at a normal healthy weight. it was a long hospital visit...and waiting rooms full of people are stressful for me so i ended up coming home, throwing up twice and going to bed early with excruciating pain from the neck up. i need to learn yoga or get meds or something for stress because it brings on terrible pain for me....i cant seem to handle it.
but at least my room is now my haven instead of my nightmare!

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