Organized chaos.

Once again i bemoan my lack of pictures or colorful anecdotes. i have neither....my imagination is a bit caged up.
i straightened up kitchen and organized a few junk drawers. that lightened my mind a bit. why is it that the clutter of your surroundings creates clutter in your mind and of course the same in reverse?
hubby and i had a lovely anniversary outing. we made a few improvement deals over dairy queen before our movie. one of them was that until january 26 i am not aloud to complain when his family calls him or when he calls them. no matter the circumstances i am to be silent on the issue. there are extreme circumstances of course but you get the drift. he is delighted with the arrangment....i am praying for strength. my goal is to be so used to keeping my peace on the issue after a month that i have learned to be more graceful at all times with it...or i hope he grows some understanding into why their behaviours upset me...or both. we shall see.
then we watched "marley and me" and i cried....and then we had santino's pizza and talked about the next few years and how we are going to handle our new leaf. its scary and exciting.
i found my baby girl on the second step up, attempting to climb the third. ready or not mommy...

Despite all my rage, i am still just a rat in a cage.

I am writing from underneath a pile of laundry, dishes and a carpet full of crumbs. im not keeping up as well as i'd like. im pretty tired too because im sick again...and the minute i start to fall asleep when i have a head cold, i get this weird tickle in my throat. not enough to be a real cough but enough to keep me awake. its very frustrating.
i almost have all my stocking stuffers covered, just one more to go. and ive almost finished another painting...i have a few more limbs of fern to paint and im done. thats pretty exciting.
a few nights ago i was watching "one tree hill", the episode where kate voegele playing mia the singer performs onstage, and matthew watched her play and sing with undivided attention. after it was over, the audience onscreen started clapping, and matthew clapped too! he was laughing and clapping his little fat hands...it was the cutest thing. and i noticed that when ava is sleeping or just done crying, she looks like my baby pictures. her little pink nose especially... it looks like she might have mine afterall. thats ok, like the legendary Anne with an E, my nose is a rather nice appendage compared to some.
we have some rearranging to do because we've come into a bit of furniture all of a sudden. and i have to go sneeze. i am SICK AND TIRED OF BEING SICK AND TIRED!

Just thinking...

Im thinking over the friends i have...and the people i dont get along with even though there is nothing particularly horrible about them. i have always known there are certain kinds of girls that just bug me...but i realized a short while ago a common trait in them all. i dont think this is the whole picture....its just a trait that is in a certain kind of person...but i dont know what kind. all i know is, i HATE when girls start talking about shopping. shopping is fun...but talking about it for two hours??? just blow my brains out please...thats kinder. i dont care where you got the shirt or what you paid girlfriend...it looks nice...take the compliment and SHUT UP!
this is not meant to be mean spirited...i would just rather have gouged my eyeballs out this past weekend than sit and listen to my mother and sister in law tell me about their shopping trips. over and over and........
is tha? my body....on the floor....twitching! oh dear! i died of a cruel overdose of mental torture. or i was wishing i would've. *wink*
now to all you shop talkers, i apologize for such strong descriptions of how much i hate it. talk away....but please PLEASE dont make me sit and listen. thank you ever so.

Its dark....

There is someone walking around in my house and its midnight. mmmyeah its me. im cleaning...when im not getting distracted by setting up mobile blogger. or attempting AGAIN.

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monday storms!

I still dont have the internet long enough in one block of time (or a strong enough connection I guess) to add pictures. I was trying.
today it is POURING down rain. its the first rain I have seen in about seven months! the wind is blowing things down and the poor little trees that the landscapers planted are getting blown to smithereans. haha. its kind of comforting though because it feels more like washington. the downside is, i wanted to go finish my christmas shopping today but the weather is so wet and making me feel so sleepy....

up and running

the computer is finally working so I am finally typing on a real keyboard again. I want to put up pictures really bad...my posts are always boring and colorless. I havent gotten any new pictures on the computer yet though so I'll have to work on that one. until then..hope everyone is enjoy their uh...well advent. haha.

You win some...you lose....

the inlaw visit is going well all things considered. Things would be better if his almost sixteen year old sister hadnt come. She just seems pissy about something....nobody knows what. She also is wearing at least one article of hubby's clothing at all times. Im not sure what i think about that situation...but i know how i feel. It feels creepy and it seems like wearing a guys clothing when he's married is one of the perks of being the wife. I guess thats not a general consensus though since his mother even asks him to give her clothes. I feel a bit like my position in my home is being ignored...but to keep peace im just biding my time. They leave tomorrow.
i did find a stocking stuffer for hubby...and for my mom, hubby is in charge of dads because he has access to cool stuff. :)
the visit isnt a catastrophe yet....but today i am not feeling well...the kids missed a nap and my female inlaws are a bit pushy...so im on a downer moment. I'll be good tomorrow though.

Beast of burden.

thats what i feel like. Im helping a friend pack up to go home for her hubby's deployment, doing airport runs, preparing for two separate family visits, dealing with babies...and now another friend wants a lift to the airport too...but thats gonna break me. I think im already doing too much but this would really overload the system. And i hate saying no so its gonna be hard to do but i need to. Right now im in the "deep breath" days just before the holiday plunge. I might drown....i aint gonna lie.

All you need.

6,602,224,175 people in the world.....and sometimes....some days...some hours....all you need is one.

church.

i miss church. I cant find a housechurch here...and the christians i talk to are so typical of the american traditional church. Its disheartening. They either tell me to speak health over my life or put alot of money on the offering plate to pay their wonderful pastor......its a sick feeling to know the truth and be surrounded by people who want to put you down for it and drag you into their pharisee-like traditions. Their little hedgelaws....laws that contradict the actual laws of God. I miss housechurch! And im glad that in a year and a half my little family gets to come back home. Because thats my extended family and ive realized i dont feel right anywhere else. I think God wants us there in the long run. Maybe thats my own agenda but its how I feel.

me oh my....

I decorated the crap out of my house. My kind husband went out and got me a tree, and ornaments, and lights, and garlands! And he sweetly didnt buy pink ornaments! (that was a special request of mine) he also declined buying the fake tree in white, which he wanted to do. Also my request. I hung up stockings, everything is twinkling and sparkling, and i love my very own tree. He also bought me a christmas cd because i practically cried when i opened my celine dion christmas album and the disk is missing!! I had to listen to avalon's christmas album...but contemperary chrismas is NOT my thing. I love the christmas mix he got me. Its great. Its got tony bennet and dean martin and eartha kitt. Thats my kind of christmas music. I think i just love christmas. :)